Everyone deserves an happy ending... really?

I confess. I am almost giving up on searching for happy endings. Had a few losses in the past, first love, bffs, husband, rebounds, second chances... it just doesn’t seem to work out. I stop blaming others and decide to look deep into the mirror thinking that i might the problem. I realised that the flaws that i have is to hard for them to understand let alone accept. Oh trust me i did changed for the better, to be a better wife, a more understanding girlfriend, a reliable bff and problem-free lady but then I realised i am living someone else’s happy ending. ......Where is mine? So i dropped everything. Confused missing boyfriend (he went off hiatus with a reason that he needs to think ?), unfamiliar faces, unknown men and even dating apps. Shut them all and stay still. Just silence. I realised.... that i am happy ?..