Pieces of me, I still miss.

Dah 4 tahun I bergelar isteri dan 3 tahun sebagai ibu. Honestly, I really miss my old version. The one yang boleh keluar dengan kawan2, happy2 gelak sampai tak ingat dunia, bebas explore bandar KL dengan jalan kaki, plan short trip last minute ke negeri lain, and try extreme or adventurous things tanpa fikir banyak. Not saying I'm regret getting married or having kids at all. Don't get me wrong. Cuma I tak expect bila dah ada tanggungjawab besar ni, automatically banyak benda yang dulu I boleh buat, sekarang dah susah nak buat. Faktor paling besar sebab ada anak kecil, susah nak bawa ke mana2. Kadang2 I feel kalau dapat me-time dengan husband pun dah cukup, keluar dating berdua kejap, atau check in just the two of us, macam rasa honeymoon balik. I really miss that. Lepas kahwin, husband limitkan circle kawan sampai I literally have zero social life sekarang. Hidup 24/7 dengan anak. Ada jugak husband bawa jalan, but only once in a while. I’m happy with my current life as a wife and mother, but deep down I still miss the way I used to enjoy things when I was single. Harapnya bila anak2 dah besar nanti, I dapat balik buat benda2 yang I suka. Maybe rasa sunyi ni muncul sebab dah lama I rasa suami cuma nampak I as a wife and a mother, not really as his best friend anymore. Kalau dapat at least one or two friends to meet once in a while pun, honestly, that would mean a lot. Maybe it’s just been too long I rasa lonely… so yeah, this is just my little confession. Tq for reading. Love u all strong mothers. ❤️ RinduDiriYangDulu. #SilentStruggles #UnspokenFeelings #ConfessionOfAWife #LonelyButGrateful #PiecesOfMe