I get why you feel this way. It’s frustrating when you’re trying everything and the one thing left depends on him, and he just won’t do it. And yeah, knowing he’s getting off alone but not with you would mess with my head too—I’d be overthinking it just like you are.
At the same time, I don’t think this is about him not being attracted to you. Whether it’s fear of hurting you, feeling weird about it, or just something in his head, it’s clearly not clicking for him. That doesn’t mean your feelings aren’t valid, though. It sucks when you’re asking for support, and it feels like he’s not giving it.
I just don’t want you to let this turn into resentment, especially if induction ends up being necessary. From what I’ve heard, sex isn’t even a guaranteed way to get labour going, so don’t let this be the thing that makes you feel like your birth experience was ‘taken’ from you. You’ve done everything you can, and no matter how it happens, you’re still bringing your baby into the world—and that’s the only thing that really matters 🩷