My postpartum depression is getting worse day by day
Hi . I just want to rant. So my hub always says na lagi daw ako nakasibangot. We stay here in my inlaws and we have 10months old baby na kasama ko 24/7. My life is like a survival nalang talaga na sana matapos na tong araw na to makakapag pahinga na ko sa gabe. Nakaka drain naman kasi na maghapon kami lang halos ni baby magkasama, ayoko lunurin sa screentime si baby kaya as long as I have the energy to play with him and to make him laugh, I will. Plus the house chores pa dahil nakikisama ako sa mga inlaws ko ayoko na may masabi sila. That way nakaka drain na kasi minsan 😥. Kaya hindi maganda timpla ng mukha ko kapag pagod na. I know all of you gonna say na "bumukod kasi kayo" yes we planned it pero after pa ng binyag plus 1st bday ni baby dahil dun palang ako makakapag work talaga, against ako don dahil ako lng naman degree holder saamin, but my husband insisted, mapilit tlaga sya na kailangan daw ako mag alaga for the whole yr. After og all of these happenings I just felt like my postpartum depression is getting worse day by day, even though he said it that its not good na pakita ko yung sadness at frustration ko dahil baka ma misinterpret ng nakakakita na sibangot ako, but girl I can't help it!😥 I'm always getting bored and tired of my everyday routine being a house wife. Sana mabilis nalang ang 2months dahil I know na kapag balance ang life ko which is having time for housechores, taking care of my baby and doing my passion outside home will heal my mental depression.
