My postpartum depression is getting worse day by day

Hi . I just want to rant. So my hub always says na lagi daw ako nakasibangot. We stay here in my inlaws and we have 10months old baby na kasama ko 24/7. My life is like a survival nalang talaga na sana matapos na tong araw na to makakapag pahinga na ko sa gabe. Nakaka drain naman kasi na maghapon kami lang halos ni baby magkasama, ayoko lunurin sa screentime si baby kaya as long as I have the energy to play with him and to make him laugh, I will. Plus the house chores pa dahil nakikisama ako sa mga inlaws ko ayoko na may masabi sila. That way nakaka drain na kasi minsan 😥. Kaya hindi maganda timpla ng mukha ko kapag pagod na. I know all of you gonna say na "bumukod kasi kayo" yes we planned it pero after pa ng binyag plus 1st bday ni baby dahil dun palang ako makakapag work talaga, against ako don dahil ako lng naman degree holder saamin, but my husband insisted, mapilit tlaga sya na kailangan daw ako mag alaga for the whole yr. After og all of these happenings I just felt like my postpartum depression is getting worse day by day, even though he said it that its not good na pakita ko yung sadness at frustration ko dahil baka ma misinterpret ng nakakakita na sibangot ako, but girl I can't help it!😥 I'm always getting bored and tired of my everyday routine being a house wife. Sana mabilis nalang ang 2months dahil I know na kapag balance ang life ko which is having time for housechores, taking care of my baby and doing my passion outside home will heal my mental depression.

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take it in a way na wg mo masyado iabsorb miii yung comment ni hubby in a negative note, mas mahlaga parin ang mental state mo at this time so yung validation from other people must not be your emphasis, you validate yourself. sobrang hirap ng gngwa mo mii, that itself is something to be proud of na nakekeri mong mag hands on mom while nakikisama sa inlaws plus all that house chores. siguro kaya nasasabi ni hubby mo yon in trying to defend you rn na ayaw nya mkikita ng parents nya yung ganon , na baka may negative na mafifeel sila towards you kaya sya na mismo nagccomment sayo. after all, partner mo si hubby, magconfide ka rn sknya ng feelings mo, ng pagod mo. if hindi naman kayo ganon ka expressive sa isat isa, then you can only control how you react towards outside factors. breathe out miiii. and pray of course, when no one else cares enough to hear your rants, there's ONE up THERE who will. . ❤️🙏

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Anonymous

2y ago

I've learned a lot through your words mommy 😌thanks for sharing your thoughts 💓

same tayo. parang feeling ko laging mainit ang ulo ko araw araw. lagi din akong nasimangot. 24/7 ko din kasama anak ko. pero pagod na pagod ako pag kakagising sa umaga. minsan pa walang tulog sa dami ng isipin. 1.5 yrs old na baby namin. feeling ko rin survival mode din ako lagi. esp sa mga masasakit sa katawan. kaibahan lang natin nakabukod kami. siguro ganito na talaga ang isang nanay. may pinagdadaanan lagi. araw araw. walang ubos. pero kailangan nating gumawa ng paraan para malampasan ng maluwalhati ang bawat araw. sa atin umaasa ang anak natin di pwedeng sumuko. 😊

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well, for me its a matter of acceptance , thinks positive in every situation... kahit gaano ka nega,dapat positive ka pa din... close your eyes enhale and exhale and pray na ma conquer mo ang feeling na ganyan.....however di kasi tayo parepareho mag-isip and sometimes hindi siya applicable sa iba... ang masabi ko lang,yes nakakapagod tlga even wala kayo sa poder ng inlaw mo...gawin mo nalang inspiration ang anak mo..baling mo nalang sa ibang bagay para ma divert ang emotion mo...kaya mo yan...walang hindi kakayanin ang isang ina...fighting☺️

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Home Just Mums i want rant hub always says na lagi daw ako nakasibangot stay in inl