Weird

I EBF my LO, to be honest from the very first time he sucked my nipples I kinda liking it and made me arouse. It's good that his father was there to help me with my inside greed, but I didn't tell him about it about that "thing". Until the day we broke up, I remained strong and set my whole life and attention to my son. Everytime I breastfeed my son, I can't stop thinking about sex. Sometimes while am breastfeeding him am playing my clit, sometimes I masturbate after breastfeeding him. But I am not holding my son's penis. I just watch porn videos just to satisfy my inside greed. Is this natural? Am I the only one having this kind of guilt or weirdness..? Honestly am trying my best not to think about sex. What would be the best way to solve this...? Please help me..

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I don't say I am maniac just because I am plying myself while my son is latching. Kasi po kung maniac man lang din ako di sana bugbug sarado na ang pepe ko. Nung kami pa ng father ng baby ko almost 4 years din kami nun at mabibilang lang sa daliri ko kung ilng beses kami nag sex. Then the rest we do sex videocall through messenger bcuz taga USA xa. Nung nabuntis ako never never ako nakipagtalik sa iba kahit na may ang taas ng libido ko, kinaya ko po yun mga mumsh. Sinilang ko ang baby ko na napaka malinis at walang semen na kumapit sa ulo at balat niya. Hindi ko po ginahasa ang baby ko nag eenjoy lang ako sa tuwing mag latching siya. Hindi namam siguro masama mag masturbate, parang mas masama pa kung makipag talik ng sino-sino o basta2 sa mga lalaki para lang maibsan ang libog. Kaya po wag kayong judgemental, parang kasalanan ko pa ata mag paka toto at humingi ng explanation. Pero salamat nalang din kasi alam ko sa sarili ko clean ako at I never get f*** to anyone since I left his father. The end.

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