Postpartum

Hello, I just want to vent. Whenever I try to sleep, there are these flashbacks of when I was giving birth. And now I think it affects my daily life. From when I was pregnant, I was already having some problems. Taking meds to keep the baby, having injections, check up, and the pain I went through induced labor was too much. My wound reopened and even now that my baby is almost a month old, my wound still aches and it's limiting my movement. I can't even sway my child to sleep. I don't produce much milk. I can only pump an oz per breast. I tried everything to boost my breast milk but it did nothing. My nipples are inverted so I never got to enjoy feeding my baby. And now every time that my husband wants a kiss or a hug (trying to joke about how I used to be before giving birth) I feel empty. I get piss or mad at him most of the time without even a reason. Sometimes I even think that it was all his fault that I was this hurt. My conscience is bugging me and I want to console my husband but every time I'm trying to reach out to him, to bond with him, everything's coming back. I don't know if I'm scared or what but, I can't go on with my life normally if this keeps happening. Please tell me what I should do to get through this. I don't have anyone to talk to and I feel more tired everyday thinking about everything.

shn

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same tayo ng pag bubuntis daming pampakapit injections infections nakadiaper di na tumatayo hanggang induced labor pero nauwi pa din sa cs tapos 35 weeks lang pinanganak ung baby ko naiwan sa ospital. sobrang sakit lahat nakakapagod ng buong pagkatao. what you feel is valid. nung unang month ko halos gusto ko na magpakamatay, iiyak nalang laging galit, ansakit sakit ng katawan ng tahi ng lahat pati kiki kasi nainduce labor din ako. ako kasi walang pera. pero if may pera po kayo please get checked, and open up (alam kong mahirap pero maybe if your husband is responsible and loving enough alam ko tutulungan ka niya sa lahat he will give you the rest and check ups and support that you need) kapit lang mawawala din ung sakit. matagal pero mawawala din yan. for postpartum please open up or better get checked

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shn

Got a bun in the oven

2y ago

thank you ❤️

normal yan sis lalo na hirap ng oagbubuntis po pero mapapayo ko sayo is pray at pakatatag ka. Kasi ur family eap ur baby need u. Masarap mabuhay sis, think positive at much better if mag open ka sa asawa mo or family mo. Take one step at a time sis. Think positive. ako kapag nasstress or nasasad bigla. ang inisip ko is ung future ng mga anak ko, ayun naeexcite na ako ukit at it motivates me maging strong pra sa pamilya namin. Saka I always open up kay hubby .. kaya nakakahelo un kasi alam nya may pinagdadaanan ako at he assured me na nadyan sya for us. Yung mga pangarap namin pra sa mga bata. Help ur self sis. Reach out to ur hubby and family. They will be ur supportee if u let them.

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