What Is This Feeling?

Question

Hello! ? I am a FTM. I just gave birth a week ago. My babys mixed feeding. First of all, Im a single mom. His dad left us for my friend when I was on my 3rd month. I grieve, of course, who wouldnt? But then, I was able to cope up with depression with the help of God, family, and friends. I was happy on the remaining months of my pregnancy even without his daddy. I was excited to see my baby and to be able to hug him and be with him. But I have a concern, every time Im breastfeeding him, Im feeling a vibe that I know is not healthy for me. Its like there are mixed emotions running thru my veins every time Im feeding him. Fear, sadness, anxiety, happiness, excitement. I dont know exactly. Im afraid. Every time Im about to feed him, Im getting nervous -- nervous of what Im about to feel. Can someone please enlighten me? Am I the only one feeling this? What should I do? ?

Anonymous · Answer

Ako nga grabe nang naranasan pait since niloko ako ng ama ng baby ko. Sakin lahat ng sisi kasi ako nga naman yung nabuntis. Di din kinilala si baby ng ama niya eh. Nag move on nalang ako at kinalimutan (pinipilit kalimutan ang lahat.) Dahil wala naman alam si baby eh anong pag alam nito napaka inosente pa nya para ibuhos sakanya lahat ng sisi at galit na ginawa sakin ng gago kong ex. Tbh kamukhang kamukha ng baby ko ama niya. Pero binabalewala ko lang yun at pinipilit na palakihin ng maayos si baby kahit mag isa lang ako. Sana makatulong tong kwento ko sayo. 😊

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