What Is This Feeling?
Hello! ? I am a FTM. I just gave birth a week ago. My baby's mixed feeding. First of all, I'm a single mom. His dad left us for my friend when I was on my 3rd month. I grieve, of course, who wouldn't? But then, I was able to cope up with depression with the help of God, family, and friends. I was happy on the remaining months of my pregnancy even without his daddy. I was excited to see my baby and to be able to hug him and be with him. But I have a concern, every time I'm breastfeeding him, I'm feeling a vibe that I know is not healthy for me. It's like there are mixed emotions running thru my veins every time I'm feeding him. Fear, sadness, anxiety, happiness, excitement. I don't know exactly. I'm afraid. Every time I'm about to feed him, I'm getting nervous -- nervous of what I'm about to feel. Can someone please enlighten me? Am I the only one feeling this? What should I do? ?