Post Partum Depression (?)

At first, I was not convinced about PPD, pero after a week of having my baby boy, I started to feel this. Ewan ko, I felt a lot of fears for my baby. After knowing my jaundice sya, I can help but feel worried for him, kada breastmilk ko sa kanya, nakakatakot baka di sya makahinga. Kada iyak nya, I felt like baka my iniinda syang sakit. I am worried, that I may not provide the best care for him. Everything about him makes me cry of fear. Tapos I started to feel pity for myself, for losing all the confidence, and not feeling beautiful. I cry too when my husband is worried of our finances (kasi si mil ang nagsusuport sa amin while my husband is looking for a job, kasi he just had his MA degree; no issue kay MIL, si hubby lang talaga, ayaw nya financial support ni MIL). Haaaaaay. Also, being a FTM, di pa nagsisink in na may anak na talaga ako.. Basta, its a weird feeling.. I pray to overcome this. I pray for those who felt the same, those who also have PPD.