I dont know what to do
Since 6th month namin ng partner ko year 2016, i know na may nauna sya sakin, on that day na akala mo ikaw lang, may mas nauna pala sayo pero di kmi nag hiwalay, choice namin un, alam kong mahal nya ko, ganun din sya, sumating sa point last year around march, nakipag hiwalay na ko at umalis ng bahay, simce leave in kami, pero "He beg forme to come home", then i go back, since then, sila pa din, every day im hoping na maging ok na lahat, at kung talagang mahal nya ko, di naman masama i hope na ako na lang piliin, nag patuloy kami habang sila pa din nung unang girl, but last year was a beautiful disaster, "yes, i got pregnant" that was around August, nu g sinabi ko na buntis ako, "he questioned it" sabi nya baka di kanya, at pinaka worst, sabi nya "bakit ngaun pa kung kelan di na kita mahal", and i dndt answer, i just beg for him to stay, kahit pinaalis nya na ko (during pregnancy, pinapalayas nya ko) it was the darkest 9months of my life mga momsh, yung mag papacheck up ka, di ka sasamahan, ung nagcrave ka pero wala kang karapatan mag inarte ksi napipilitan na lng sya halos harapin ka araw araw, until January this year, i just identify, na nabuntis nya din ung unang girl ..and they called it "blessing" while they call my pregnancy "burden".. sakit db? pero until now, nanganak na ko last March , magkasama pa din kami, inaalagaan nya ung baby namin kaso everyday, aburido na sya kahit makaharap ako, and guess what, on the 7th day after i gave birth, sinabi nya na anytime soon, mag "papakasal na sila", and its either kmi yung aalis o sya ung aalis.. i loved him for the last 3years we even pray for a baby, and right now dasal ako ng dasal na maging ok lahat hoping na kmi pipiliin kahit alam kong mali, pero mukhang di na mangyayari, its sounds "off" mga momsh alam ko lalo na ung ganitong "kabit" story lalo sa mga legal wife .. pero, ang hirap mag desisyon pag may "baby" na involve, ung mag 2months old pa lang baby ko pero alam ko "broken family na sya agad agad" ... sorry, di ko lang tlaga alam na gagawin ko... ayoko mag give up, pero i think its about time lalo kung hindrance ka na sa happiness ng ibang tao, na nuon ikaw ung souce of happiness ngaun, halos pnadirian ka na, what should be the best thing to do, i dont know if its the right place to ask.. i just try. p.s alam ko mas madaming judger na lalabas, pero im just a mom, na nag aask ng better decision. i need help, as a friend not just a human that might be judge by the society dahil kabit ka, madalas ksi ganito sa pilipinas. sana Open minded lahat. thanks in advance mommsh.. ?
