I love my lo!! but sometimes I feel that I am trapped & couldn't wait to escape from him.. he doesn't sleep much during the day (15-30mins), and I have to guard around him to coax him back to sleep.. is it normal to feel this way? I am feel so guilty, and convince that I'm lacking maternal instinct,, feeling lousy as a mother m..

It's very normal to feel this way mommy! Don't beat yourself too much over this. How old is your baby? Sounds like he's still pretty young and he needs all your attention. If you need help, ask for it - from you husband, parents etc. There's no shame in asking for help. You are doing the best for your child and while he's too young to communicate his gratitude, he knows :) you're doing a great job and don't let anyone else, including yourself, tell you otherwise.