Is something wrong with me?

Hi im a new mum and my LO is turning 3 months soon. I honestly love my LO but sometimes i couldnt help it to think about my past like how i use to be free from commitment, i can do whatever i want. I sometimes feel like going back to my younger days & just live there. I know being a mum is not hard, life itself is hard enough but i just wanna be away from my LO. I used to be a hustler everyday i would work & now i just cant wait to go back to work. Is it bad that i feel this way? My baby has her routines but when im feeling tired dad will take charge but he doesnt follow what i ask him to do & now i have to follow his way in order to feed my baby or put her to sleep. Its exhausting for me. I feel like he doesnt listen to me and my LO prefers him than me. I do certain things like just sit and rock her to sleep because when i get back to work my mum will be taking care of her & i dont wanna burden her carrying my baby just to make her nap or sleep. Ive read about postpartum blues & sometimes i feel that way. I cried and blame myself for asking god for a baby because ive been trying and i had 2 miscarriages before. Now i feel a little regret and when i feel that way i cried and felt guilty. When LO doesnt follow what i always do eg feeding or putting her to sleep i get frustrated and angry. Am i having baby blues? Please tell me im not alone. I still dont wanna sacrifice my life for my LO, is it bad i feel this way? Do i need help? #firstbaby #advicepls #pleasehelp #babygirl