I got a sudden urge when I'm angry that I hurt my baby then I cry cause I know its not his fault. Please any advice to stop myself for this. Poor baby. I get angry/stressed out when he doesn't want to sleep/ I can't do house chores. 10 months postpartum. :(

Hi, I can understand that one gets angry at times managing kids tantrums but no matter what you cannot hit the baby. You will have to practice some anger management techniques. I hope you must be aware of countries that put you behind bars for hitting the child, even if its your own, and if proved guilty it would be a daunting task to get back the child's custody. So, feel lucky that you are in not any such country, but at the same time you should not take it for granted. I know you understand how precious your child is for you, and all the feelings come in a fit of anger. See, anger too is an emotion but it is not an emotion that does good to anyone, so it is better that we keep it under control. I suggest that when your baby cries instead of patting him to sleep or to shut her up, distract her. Engage her in some activity so she stops crying. Get her toys that can keep her engaged. Give her kitchen dishes to play drum or things alike. And for yourself, do some meditation, and yoga. Basically, take out time for yourself. Be it half an hour in a day, have your own time, where you are just with yourself. Talk to your husband, as when he back from office, you can go out for walk and stuff. Else, you can keep a day help who can lend a hand in taking care of the child. See, if you will be happy and give time to yourself, you will be happily able to handle the baby's tantrums with ease.