I feel very sad. I just confirmed again that husband has another separate facebook account with an alias plus I believe he blocked my account. He PM other women with "those" messages. I don't feel like letting him touch me or call me "Sayang", "Dear".. Is it okay? I avoided him, don't let him touch me and throw a big tantrum.. and he ask me, "What wrong i did again?" I feel like marriage is just a contract.

he once said if messaging other women is not cheating. hold hands, hug also not cheating. unless he sleeps with other women. which he say he never will. but what if in future he dares to sleep around, as he becomes older. and I feel so used by him. he got turn on by some other women, then have sex with me. I don't wish to have sex with him anymore if like that.. is it possible to have a sexless marriage? just stay on for the kids and the house and family?