How Would You Feel?

How would you feel? Hi mommies how would you feel if you were in my situation? Im currently 8 months pregnant with our first child. Since January, we havent had a "sexy time" with my husband since i experienced threatened abortion and was placed on bed rest. By my 2nd trimester, the ob allowed me to move and discontinued my medications. It was just in time for my husband's bday and our anniversary. These plus the horny hormones of 2nd trimester combined, we planned to do it several times but failed kasi sobrang sakit. So we decided to do it after manganak nalang, like MONTHS after pa. There are times na i would offer to blow him pero he would refuse cause he's tired, or "baka malasahan ni baby" which is silly. Pero i would just brush it off. I'm not a fan of giving them before pregnancy din naman. Last weekend, father's day, as a sexually frustrated wife, i offered to blow him which he declined. Yesterday, i caught him watching porn. This is the first time i caught him and i felt hurt. I cried all night because i felt cheated on, plus i felt really ugly. I gained weight due to pregnancy, my boobs changed, my belly has stretchmarks. I told him about my insecurities, he still says na i'm still pretty and he loves me no matter what but i still felt betrayed. Now, i cant look at him anymore. I dont want him to touch me or see my body.