Somehow, it's still a good thing that you are aware of what you are going through. It means you are open to the possibility of seeking help from other people. You mentioned that mejo may violence nang involved kasi nasasaktan mo na husband mo. I really recommend that you seek professional help asap. You might need to go through a healing process and your loved ones need to know about how to deal with the situation so they can help you cope with this anxiety.
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