have you ever had a bad dream about your baby?

as a first time mom, i have so much insecurities, fears, anxiety and panics when it comes to being a mom. i have no one to guide me through this journey since my mom passed away 3years ago. it was so hard to ask opinions from other moms since di nila ako kilala. but im trying to be a good mom sa way na kaya ko no pressure. but lately i have this constant nightmares. i would not want to bring my baby anywhere she can be harmed. i do not want to be the one to cause her harm. :( sometimes i just feel so sad i would keep staring at her sleeping until i would fall asleep.