Sad that i ended up with csect

When i was pregnant, ive always dreamt about having the most natural vaginal birth. However due to failed induction i ended up with emergency csect. My worst nightmare came true. Ive always feared that my whole pregnancy. And now 3 weeks PP, I’m still in pain every single day. And I hate this recovery phase so much. Most people already no longer in much pain by 3rd week but im still in pain. Still having trouble turning to my sides when sleeping as i will feel like my stomach and stitches are being stretched and ripped. I feel so sad whenever i see people or my friends who are able to give birth vaginally as the recovery is shorter, and they can conceive without waiting for the 2 years gap. Most of them look even slimmer by few weeks, while here i am, altho petite, i still have this huge saggy stomach. Aside from saggy, its still painful inside out. I just feel so demoralised that i was not able to give birth vaginally and recover faster. 😔😔 Is it normal to feel this way. I still cant accept the fact that i had to go thru csect. I hate the recovery i hate my body so so much and i am still in pain every single day. Every day waking up, i have zero motivation to even live. #FTM

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Hihi, don’t be too sad. I think I’m almost the same situation as you. Failed induction and my cervix failed to open quick enough resulting in emergency c sect. Just want to say I’m almost 2 months PP now and recovery takes time. Initially I was like you and was feeling anxious about recovery but let me reassure you, your wound needs time to recover. When I was 3 weeks PP, I was still hurting very badly everywhere. I described giving birth to people as getting run over by a lorry. Now at 2 mths PP I am very much used to the scar tissue there doing light massaging (circular motion touching the overhang) does help relieve the sensitivity and numbness of the wound. I have stopped relying on painkillers and my binder. It does bother me time to time again but it isn’t as bad as how it used to. Just like a scab from a wound healing. Initially I was also hoping for natural and I cried so much in the delivery ward when the doctor told me that we have to go for c sect. But I found out that the recovery is actually not as bad as I have imagined. Listening to my mummy friends who have been through vaginal births they also have a certain recovery period as well. And I’m just happy I don’t have to be traumatized every time I go pee/ poop post delivery because of stitches down there. Yes, I’m also quite sad that we have to wait 2 years before we can try for next baby but that also mean we can have more time to spend with our current born (which is also my first born) so I’m not complaining. I am also very petite and was stuck with a mom pouch for awhile. It takes time. Only until recently I’ve started to see a difference. I waited till my 6 weeks gynae check for my gynae to give me the go ahead to start my postnatal massage. After massaging and binding you will see results in your tummy flattening and I’m starting to feel happier that I can start fitting into XS clothes again. Going through c sect doesn’t make you less of a mom/ woman. Be it vaginal birth or c section birth, going through delivery itself makes you a great mother. Remember, you brought your baby into this world. Whichever way, it is painful and not easy. Like they always say ‘stop saying c section is the easy way, when it is the only way for me to bring my baby into this world’. I wish you the best as someone who has been through this. Give yourself some time. Recovery takes time. Don’t be too anxious and rush it because I was just like that. Trust me in saying that it it will get better.

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