Sad that i ended up with csect

When i was pregnant, ive always dreamt about having the most natural vaginal birth. However due to failed induction i ended up with emergency csect. My worst nightmare came true. Ive always feared that my whole pregnancy. And now 3 weeks PP, I’m still in pain every single day. And I hate this recovery phase so much. Most people already no longer in much pain by 3rd week but im still in pain. Still having trouble turning to my sides when sleeping as i will feel like my stomach and stitches are being stretched and ripped. I feel so sad whenever i see people or my friends who are able to give birth vaginally as the recovery is shorter, and they can conceive without waiting for the 2 years gap. Most of them look even slimmer by few weeks, while here i am, altho petite, i still have this huge saggy stomach. Aside from saggy, its still painful inside out. I just feel so demoralised that i was not able to give birth vaginally and recover faster. 😔😔 Is it normal to feel this way. I still cant accept the fact that i had to go thru csect. I hate the recovery i hate my body so so much and i am still in pain every single day. Every day waking up, i have zero motivation to even live. #FTM