karma na ba to?!

Share ko lang... Im 14w preggy and 1st timer. This pregnancy is never easy. I had a hyperemesis gravidarum which caused severe vomitting. I was even admitted kc nadedehydrate nako. I thought nawala na xa on my 12w, but now parng bumabalik na rin.. i also had uti which caused severe pain at the back. Nahihirapan na din ako makatulog sa gabi. Sometimes i reflected n baka grabe ung pinagdadaanan ko ngayon because i was never a good child sa mama ko. When i was a kid, i remembered inaaway ko mama ko, napaka daldal ko at i knew i caused her tears. But when i realized, bumabawi na ko sa mama ko... Now i realized it was never to be a mom and feel ko nakakarma nako sa mama ko. Nakaka iyak na kasi sometimes sa mga pinagdadaanan ko ngayon na preggy ako. I kept on praying for forgiveness sa nagawa ko before na mga kamalian sa mama ko and to survive this journey of motherhood..