Losyang na..

Just posting this to vent out. I know maraming mommies here na mas may legit stress than me so I’m sorry but please bear with me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ako recently pero madalas akong malungkot pag nakikita ko sarili ko at katawan ko. Siguro dahil sobrang busy these past few wks si hubby sa work to the point na wala na syang time halos samin,sa akin😕. Madalas sumagi sa isip ko nitong mga nakaraan,bakit kung kelan may partner ako,saka naman ako nalosyang😭. I was a single mom for 6.5yrs. Nagstart akong mag work when my daughter turned 14 months. I’m earning really well,merong hobbies,always with friends. Part ng work ko ang pagtatravel locally. All is well Nung naging kami ni hubby,pinatigil na nya ako sa work at sya na lang nagsupport sa family at daughter ko. In other words,nastuck na lang ako sa apat na sulok ng condo which was okay for me. Until nabuntis ako with our son. Ang dami lalong changes. Lalo na sa sarili ko,sa katawan ko,sa itsura ko. Hindi naman ako mahilig talagang mag ayos pero mejo okay naman ako before and at least before,naaalagaan ko ang katawan ko. Ngayon grabe🤦🏼‍♀️ Stretchmarks,dry skin,baby pouch,eyebags,hairfall. Feeling ko mukha na lang akong yaya ng anak ko. Don’t get me wrong,sobrang walang problema kay hubby. I’m very well provided. He still cooks food for me in between his busy hours,he still hugs me and tells me I’m pretty. He still thanks me for being a good and strong mom for our son pero deep inside,I can’t shake that feeling of being disappointed with myself. While browsing my gallery,I noticed na I don’t even take pictures of myself anymore. Puro picture ng anak ko. Habang nawiwili akong mag alaga ng anak ko,habang lumalalim yung love ko sa kanila,nawawalan na din pala ako ng panahon na mahalin at alagaan sarili ko. I love my family,no questions about that. But I just miss my old self. I feel incomplete and lost right now. Just sad. Just sharing some photos of me for self appreciation. First photo was taken very recently while the last 3 were before I met my husband

Marra Abogado-Kim

2 KoPino kids| Rainbow mama| SAHM | Korean-Pinoy Family

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Lahat nman po ata ng nagiging mommy nafefeel yung ganyan sis pero dapat maging proud ka kasi pinaghirapan natin yan eh.. yung eyebags pinagpuyatan natin yan para sa mga kids natin, yung pag 2' 2piece pwede pa natin magawa yan pero ako now 2pc chicken na madalas ko nagagawa' hehe! Same same lng siguro tayo dati sumasali pakong pageant and photographer ko pa partner ko, dati size xs lng panty pero ngaun xl nako, dati pag nag tatravel kami 2 lng kmi with friends pero ngaun 4 na w/ kids and mga anak dn ng tropa namin.. Halos lahat nag bago pero dapat be happy pdn positive lng dahil lahat ng nabago kapalit nman nun is yung happiness na nabibigay mo sa fam mo and ung natatanggap mo sa kanila.. Pray lng po always and no to stress, ndi ka losyang.. Maganda ka, mas mahiya yung mga nanay na napapabayaan yung mga anak nila..

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