Need advice, is this PPD?

Hello mommies, I'm a eCS and 1st time mom, I gave birth last June. CS delivery was emergency due to baby's disposition and no labor pains kasi ako. After I gave birth, my husband was 200% there for me and our baby. He's doing and giving his best for us but to my surprise, I find myself falling out of love from him. Nandun yung puro pangit na sakanya ang nakikita ko. I question myself why did I marry him? Nakuha ako sa tyaga, 2x ko na sya binasted but sinagot ko sya on the 3rd aattempt  sobrang i dont find him enough for us, for me. Di sya tapos ng pag aaral kaya ang hirap hirap for him to find a job. Most of the time ako ang mas madiskarte kaya sguro naiistress ako lalo this pandemic, sobrang unstable kami financially. Worst, I am thinking about someone from my past, na paano kaya if sya ang naging asawa ko at ama ng anak ko. I know it's very bad to think and do. Pero yun tlaga naeexperience ko til now na going 4 months na si baby. I want it to go away. I don't know what to do mga my i feel so guilty sa husband ko. Anyone who cares to advise me please? No to bash po  thankyou and God bless #1stimemom #theasianparentph #firstbaby #advicepls #breasfeedingmom #plsRespectmyPost