(Long post ahead)
Hello. Just want to ask for a piece of advice.
I’m currently 17 weeks pregnant, a first time mom. Normal lang po ba na maramdaman mong mag-isa ka lalo sa gabi pag mahimbing na natutulog yung partner mo then ikaw nagsa-suffer from physical pain like pananakit ng katawan, hindi makatulog, bloated or something (not really malala na pang emergency). Hindi naman sya pwede basta gisingin kasi hirap sya makatulog ulit then may pasok sya kinabukasan.
I know naman na very responsible yung partner ko and he’s doing his very best for us ni baby lalo nung he allowed me to stop working.
Sobrang confused ko sa nararamdaman ko na there are times na I’m very grateful to him sa
lahat ng ginagawa nya for us but there are also times na pakiramdam ko ako lang may gusto magkaanak tapos napilitan lang sya then nasira ko buhay nya kasi hindi pala sya ready kaya there are times na I feel like he’s not mentally and emotionally supportive. Naisip ko marami pa pala syang gustong gawin sa buhay, bilhin na kung ano-ano. Malaki salary nya and it covers everything tapos may sobra pa pero minsan feeling ko nakukulangan pa rin sya kasi nga suddenly meron na syang responsibility.
I’m in mid 20s and he is mid 30s. May sarili naman akong pera na nakukuha that’s like 1/4 lang ng sahod nya lol so feeling ko pabigat ako kahit alam ko rin naman na I’m carrying his child. But then again, napasok sa utak ko na ginusto ko tong baby so wala akong karapatan mag reklamo. Not that he’s telling me that rin naman. But anyway, ayun lang. What should I do to lessen this kind of feeling?