Not going to be a mother?

I want to birth a healthy baby like other people. I want to experience how to be a mother. I want to heard my baby crying for the first time. But this is not going happen. There is a high posibility of miscarriage. I want my baby stay on my womb until nine months. We waited this for a long time and we are so excited. We pray this wont happen. We promise that we will be a supportive and loving parents for our baby so please let us experience on how to be a parent please.???