Am i feeling normal

It’s normal. Mine was a planned pregnancy and it took us more than a year to conceived. I didn’t feel any connection to baby at all even when I was pregnant. Epidural side effects was so bad the moment they put baby on my chest i told them “please take her away and leave me alone”. I was feeling like sh!t with the crazy vomiting and weak all over. Definitely not love at first sight. It took me 2 months to accept the reality and baby. First few weeks I did everything because I feel like “it’s my job and I have to do it even tho I detest it and definitely not willingly.” When I feel better personally (mentally and physically), that’s where I started to interact and open up to my own baby. I started to accept her, feel the joy when I’m with her and then not seeing this as a job but a responsibility willingly. I would say, get all the extra help you have, focus on your wellbeing first. With our body being mentally and physically exhausted, we cannot see things on the bright side. Everyday is just like “this sucks, why did I do this to myself, I could have enjoyed life and so on.” then that’s where we start to feel like sh!t. Give yourself some time, it’s totally normal, you’re just a human being with emotions. People often forget while baby is important, mom’s wellbeing is also equally important. You will overcome this 🙌🏻😊.