Am i feeling normal

I remember when i was pregnant everybody would tell me no matter how bad your pregnancy is or how long your labour is, once you see your baby being born, everypain will go away. But i dont feel it. I went thru emergency csect due to failurr to progress, and when they placed my baby on my chest, i honestly felt nothing. I even want them to get it away from me maybe cause i was shivering, and wanting to vomit etc. Up till now, 2 weeks+ i still dont feel the connection with my baby. I feel very burdened. I feel like my life has been taken away. Sometimes i feel like giving the baby away. I feel bad that my baby has a mother like me, thats not loving as others. Am i really bad and useless.