Feeling alone.

I am married. I don't know why I have this feeling that it is only me ang nagpalaki ni baby. Financially and support ni baby. Di sya masyadong naglalapit ni baby with the reason na mas gusto dw ako ni baby. Kase naman palagi nyang sinisigawan si baby and always din nyang pagalitan. Mas madalas pa nyang hawak cellphone nya kaysa anak nya. I am disappointed of what kind of father he turned out. We were in relationship for 9 years as bf gf, didn't expect that he has this kind of behaviour. Tried talking to him with this matter but walang effect sa kanya. Currently , we are living in my parents house kase I am in wfh set-up, last week of January he quit his job (even before may job pa sya, ni milk or diaper or vitamins d kayang mag provide). I wanted to quit din sa job ko kase napaka toxic na but I choose to stay kase mahirap maghanap ng trabho in this pandemic time. So ngayon, mas lalo pang napadaladas ang pag se-cellphone nya, 3am-4am na natutulog kaka-CP nya, tapos woke up 12 noon, eh nahihiya ako sa parents ko kase nga nakikikain pa kami and nakikitira. I really don't know what to do. I just want to quit, rest, have some me time but I can't kase I'M A MOTHER. #advicepls #pleasehelp