Midnight Thought

I feel sad eveytime I remember what's me before having a baby. I see myself as nothing, no one. I don't have any talents, skills, I can't do anything good, even in school or at home. Not that very friendly, nor very smart, I have nothing to be proud of. All I have is this overthinking mind with its negative thought. I feel I failed not just myself but also my family and people around me. My journey to find "me" wasn't finish yet I did something I'm no good at. Being responsible. I'm now pressured to do things and be how a mother should be. I don't think I'd be good at it (I'm sure) bec. I wasn't before. God has given me another challenge that'll fail and will make me blame myself for existing and pushing myself that everything will be Okay when in reality it won't be better.