Sorry My Child

I don't know why am I like this? Am I deserve to be a mother to my future child? I am sorry ZEFS for being irresponsible mother u can't even saw in the entire world coz ur not here anymore. My love, my child. This is so painful and I can't even forgive myself for hurting you, for not giving u the life that u deserve. I love you my child. Sorry for being a dumb mother. Sorry bcoz I'm weak, I can't even protect and fight u for your father's decision. He even blockmail me that he will commit suicide If I pursue you and I am here regreting all the decision I made, I can't even think of you that time. Sorry my child. I am very sorry. My heart still at the very depressed moment of my life. We will see each other my child. Very soon ??? Zefs turn Week9 and 6 days today