Meth Almost Broke Us — But We Fought Back Together

Me and my husband used to use meth (syabu) together. Life was chaotic, constant fights, lies, heartbreak. We loved each other, but meth made us careless, selfish, and sometimes cruel. I remember nights where I felt completely alone, even when he was right next to me. The high made him a different person, someone I didn’t always recognize, and sometimes I became someone I didn’t like either. Last month, we made a promise to stay clean. It hasn’t been easy. Sometimes I dream about using, or I imagine having meth right in front of me. Yesterday, after a long day of cleaning, exhaustion hit me hard, my craving surged like a storm. I even tried to tempt him, hoping he might give in. But he didn’t. He held me, calmed me down, and distracted me from the craving. For the first time, I truly saw the change in him, a man who is sober, aware, and strong enough to protect me and our family from the chaos we once lived in. He told me why he resisted: he was tired of all the fights we had when meth controlled us; he couldn’t bear the thought of hurting our children, especially the baby on the way; he realized how much he loves me and our life now. A clean, normal, peaceful life. He even “lied” to me about asking the dealer, not to hide anything, but to stop me from panicking. That act, that small, selfless choice, showed me he’s thinking about us, for the long term, not just the instant high. Hearing him pray for me to have a safe birth, and for our baby to be healthy, brought tears to my eyes. I felt so grateful, so proud, and so full of love. I never imagined we could reach this point: sober, calm, and building a peaceful family together. The cravings, the guilt, the chaos of our past, they didn’t define us. Recovery isn’t just about staying clean; it’s about rebuilding trust, love, and having the courage to face life without escaping into drugs. Please pray for me, that I stay strong, that I keep healing, and that I continue to live a healthy life free from addiction. And thank you to my husband, for choosing strength for us, for choosing our family, even knowing how hard it is to resist those temptations. You’ve shown me what true love, commitment, and recovery really mean. #Amomwhowasanaddict #drugscouple #healingfromdrugs