honestly.. i have been feeling loveless from my husband recently as he is not the touching type like hugging and kissing.. always i initiate.. and he is always on the phone or his laptop and lying on bed otherwise on massage chair or either sleeping.. which i dont really like it.. feel like he's being lazy throughout the day.. we dont have often family day out to bring kids to play.. when i ask him to go out, he will comment 'u have money meh' or 'if go out who gonna pay'.. we dont have any dates at all either with the same qns throwing to me and i also thought of him playing phone and no topic to talk if we really go on date.. and sex life is so so whereby i missed being licked and fingered and kissing too.. and financial can be a headache and i really hate to discuss money issue with him.. always will end up having bad issue.. so i did thought of divorcing and raising 2 kids myself.. to the point that i actually think that i can be happier without him.. and i feel that i have no love for him anymore.. but this few days, he went back hometown and i pass by the place where i met him for the first time.. i do feel that i missed him and the past came back to me.. and he told me today that he went to do some surgery on his penis for me.. i do feel love towards him.. i do want to salvage and not divorce.. he willing to go counselling but only is free.. can advise where? so, what do u guys think? should i voice out all this to him? but i feel that he also dont bother, how?