Praying for you, Mommy. It's really a dilemma lalo na't married kayo. If I were in your shoes I think hindi ko rin alam gagawin ko, honestly. I may be brave enough para gawin yung sinasabi ng iba na kung kaya ko namang buhayin yung baby ko ng mag-isa, without his help, then go. Pero our marriage with our partners is a covenant. It's something that no one and nothing should separate not the two people anymore but "one".
It's really hard esp. in this generation na kung saan okay nalang makipaghiwalay. Pero iniisip pa rin natin na ayaw natin maging part ng broken family yung baby natin kasi alam nating hindi madali.
But you know what, I've known someone na nagcheat din sa kanya yung partner nya and because of their kids kaya di nya nagawang iwanan yung husband nya. But what she did, instead na gantihan or hiwalayan, she still do what a wife should do to her husband. Pinagluluto pa rin nya, inihahanda yung mga damit pag papasok, etc. Typical things that wives should do to their husbands. The only difference is that, parang may cold war. Hindi na tulad ng dati yung usapan nila. Hindi sya naging nagging wife kahit may karapatan sya. Hindi nya sinusumbatan yung partner nya. Mas takot kasi ang lalake pag silent ang babae. Mas ayaw nila yung mabunganga. But yun nga, it seems na out of obligation nalang yung mga ginagawa nya and of course for her kids. Nung narinig ko yun, dalaga pa ko. Naisip ko na, parang di ko kaya yun. Ako na yung agrabyado ako pa yung magpapakababa.
But we may not know kung pano kikilos ang Lord sa buhay natin. Tulad ng sa kanila, bumalik sa kanya yung husband nya at di na ulit nagcheat. Kasi naramdaman nung husband nya yung totoong love sa kanya because of what she did. And ngayon, they are both senior citizens, it's as if, they were still madly in love with each other.
It may seem degrading for us, pero what God has promised is that He gives grace to the humble, itinataas Niya yung mga nagpapakumbaba. And also, I think, what she did is not just martyrdom, kasi pure naman yung purpose ng heart nya. She acknowledged their marriage and gave importance sa family nila. I just felt and believed the real definition of love - that it is patient, kind, is not jealous, does not brag, not arrogant, not rude, not selfish, not easily angered, keeps no record of wrongs. In short, it's unconditional.
Again, it may seem degrading on your part but I believe if we keep our hearts right before the Lord, He will act on our behalf. Just allow Him to. It may not as soon as possible as we wanted but God knows what, how, and when to answer our prayers. Maniwala ka lang, Mommy.
I'll include you in my prayers.
Ghie