Giving up having a baby.

Hello, today parang nagdecide nalang partner ko na mag give up to have a baby, of course masakit. Pero parang ganun na din ako. in 14 years of being together, nung una wala kaming plano pero nung 9 yrs dun kami nag hangad na, pero naging early miscarriage lang pagbbuntis ko once. Considering na nagdarasal daw sya, may pcos ako at parang hirap sya sa pakiusap kong itigil muna ang smoking and drinking alcohol dahil low sperm count sya (though nag lessen naman sya compared noon) ,lastly nag pa ob and vitamins supplements na kami. Siguro hanggang dito nalang talaga. May naka experience po ba ng gantong sadness? 🥲 Salamat po.