Post Partum Depression PLS HELP

Hello po. I just gave birth last Oct 2019... And I think im experiencing PPD, im emotionally vulnerable and i cant forget people's mistakes like my husband's. I hate my husband now. At sya rin pinapatulan niya ung pagka iritable ko kaya't nag-aaway kme palagi. OFW sya, LDR kme kaya ang hirap. We're always fighting. But we dont have any problem maliban lng sa palagi sya ang tama at ako ang mali and pina pa feel niya sakin na parang ang liit ng tingin niya sa sarili ko na parang tanga (tho hindi niya naman sinasabi na tanga or GG ako) Sometimes im thinking kung mAli ba na nagpakasal ako sa knya. Im also very down at this moment. Like im crying everyday. Im sorry but there are times when I was thinking na sana hindi na ako magising. I may sound selfish to my daughter but I cant help it... wat should I do? )Btw, to be fair my husband is very responsible po, sya po lahat nagbabayad ng bills namin, sasakyan, etc.. ) Pls help thanks