Need Advice

Once upon a time.. I was week 5 pregnant. At first I really don't know that I'm already pregnant. Umiinom kami ng nga friends ko ng hard liquor at napadami din kain ko ng oyster, and my baby still fighting and developing at my tummy. Nalaman kung buntis ako nung april 4, I don't know if masaya talaga ako o malulungkot because of my parent disappointment at kakagraduate ko lang ng kolehiyo. My boyfriend also irresponsible,Yes! Super irresponsableng ama ng maging anak ko.. Back to the story.. I miscarriage my lil angel at week 5. Super sakit sa pakiramdam ng dinudugo ako ng 12 na araw ? I told my mom everything na ganto na kalagayan ko, na wala na baby ko ?? Sana daw sinabi ko agad sa kanya na buntis ako para daw masubaybayan at maging healthy kami ng baby ko. She never scolded me but she understand my situation. Ano kaya maipapayo nyo saken? april 9-20 dinudugo po ako at ngayon lang po nag stop.