If you don't wish to talk to family about it, talk to your friends, talk to friends who have kids before as they will naturally be able to understand how you feel and whats going on.
I been thru the same thing twice.
I constantly finding people to talk to online, even if i don't see them in RL, but talking to them online actually helps me to feel at ease much better.
Hang in there. You can also talk to me :D
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