Post partum depression

Hi mommies..i just need to let it out here. I'm a first time mom, my baby is 1 month 1 week. Things have been really difficult for me. Some days i forced myself to stay strong, some days i lost it. Today is one of the days where i'm forcing myself to be strong but i'm losing it. I almost hang myself just now a few minutes ago because i can't take it anymore. I'm exhausted, and still bleeding which makes me more tired cause losing so much blood. I don't know how long more i can take..they said it'll get better but i don't see any changes. I'm so depressed