Health Care, Give me some positive or good insight or advices :(

It's ok po to be sad and to grieve, lalo na at grabe ang effort na ibinigay nyo sa relationship. Pero in the end, huwag manghinayang sa 5 years, because that's nothing in comparison to the rest of your life ahead of you. 5 years-- mas matagal pa elementary days mo. Hindi ito sayang as long as you learned something from that time, if those learnings will make you a better and stronger person, then hindi ito sayang ☺️ Yung sa pag-deactivate ng socmed, ok lang po yun, but I encourage you that you still maintain your messenger or other means to communicate with your close family and friends-- people that matter to you and actually loves you. Try not to stress too much about now being a "broken family". The people who truly loves you will understand while those who will not are most probably the people who doesn't matter. "The days are long but the years are short", it may seem impossible to move on now but trust me, you can and you will. Be kind to yourself. Allow yourself to be sad, angry, etc. pero samahan mo rin ng reflection and prayer. To "Forgive and forget" doesn't actually mean forget it in our minds but rather to forget/release the pain in our hearts 🤗 Contrary to common beliefs, forgiving is not really you releasing the wrong doers from their sins (that's for God to decide). For our part, forgiveness is to not let other people's mistakes punish us-- it's for our own sake, our own peace. Hindi mo kailangan kalimutan, pero kailangan mo matutunan na mawala yung sakit sa puso mo 🤗 Again, be kind to yourself and give yourself some time to do so. It may take months, years, most probably less than 5yrs but maybe more. It will be hard but I assure you that eventually, you'll be able to move on and be ok ☺️ It will happen gradually pero isang araw mare-realize mo na lng na wala na pala yung sakit sa puso mo "Hugs!" PS if you ever feel that the grief if stronger than you can manage, please don't hesitate to seek professional help.