Missing him so bad..just to rant

No man can replace him..its been 5mths still fresh they said..missing him so much still fresh in my tot the day I lose him. Leaving me with 5 children all under 7 the eldest 3mths d youngest. Trying so hard to je strong the struggling inside me no one can see as they all see me so calm. I'm lying if I say I don't longing to have a hug of comfort. Only god know what I feel. To all mummies who lost yr soulmate..May we be strong all d way