Ano'ng mas mahirap for you?

unang buwan ng post partum.. sobrang hirap.. pag umiiyak si baby parang gusto ko nalang din umiyak..tapos hirap pa ako magpabreastfeed.. and I was the only one who takes care of our baby kasi need na magwork ni hubby. I can't say na pagod ako, or bagong opera ako (CS kasi ako), or I'm not ok pa. need ko pilitin sarili ko na magheal agad kasi kawawa si baby.. walang magaalaga sa kanya. now 9months na sya.. and I'm surviving the situation. kahit lagi wala si hubby I learned how to be a mom. and I hope I become better everyday.. minsan may post partum pa din ako. pag ganun inaantay ko makatulog si baby then saka ako iiyak. ok lang yun. atleast I let it out. tapos fight na ulit. I need to be strong for our baby.. my husband do everything para makapagprovide.. so I should cope up. fight lang fight para kay baby.