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I feel you as well. Missing your parent especially when becoming a parent is very natural. Due to the loss of my parent while my kid was just a few months old, had been very devastating experience for me too. I feel sad for the lost years that my parent could have spent with my kid and get the guidance and care I needed from my parent. I find facing and talking about such feelings of loss and grief helps to process the difficult feelings experienced. You are a super mommy, and your kid will give you the love and the acceptance that you need to get through motherhood.