Pain of losing a child

Same with what happened to me last 2018. It is my regular check up, I was 12 weeks pregnant and I told my Ob that there is a very thin line of brown discharge that I found in my undies. She checked for the heartbeat via Doppler and was not able to find any. She recommended to have an ultrasound and there we confirmed that I had an Intrauterine Fetal Demise. My baby was just 7 weeks old and 5 days, seems like he/she stopped developing and had been dead for quite a while. Me and my husband went straight to the mall and bought tickets to the cinema, not to watch but to cry in the balcony because we can't come home yet. I can't tell my then 4 yr old first born that his brother/sister is gone. This happened weeks before our wedding. I was a mess. I can't understand why. When I had my first born, I was not ready, I was so young and the biological father left me while pregnant. But I am so ready with the second one, everyone is excited. My fiance is going to be a great dad just as he did with my first born whom he loves as his own. My then fiance told me, never to keep the hurt in my heart. Never to be mad at God. He is hurting and he lost a child too but he was saying those words to me. It helped me a lot and I kept believing. We got married and now after a year of the miscarriage I am 7mos pregnant with our baby boy. It surely took all the time it needed. But God helped us heal. I am sure He will do the same thing with you. Just keep the faith.