Pain of losing a child

I just lost my child yesterday, a complete miscarriage in just one snap. It's not just the pain of miscarriage but the pain that I lost the opportunity to see him, to hug him, to hear him say his first word, see him take his first step, get him to his first school, bond with him, see him grow, provide him all the things and love and care he needed. It's not the "if only" that is painful it is the "what if, what could or what would" that is absolutely painful. It's unbearable, no mother deserves to lose a child she had so much hoped for. People kept saying atleast I have an angel if only they knew that my little one would still be angel even if he is alive and that hits me so hard. I told him we can make it together, it's just him and me and we would still have a blast and happy life, but my baby left me and silently slipped from my grip. We could have been the best buddies. I feel so sore, numb, and dead.

CJ Ortiz

first time mum to be ♥️

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I'm so sorry mommy, I too, lost my first. I never got to see him/her on ultrasound, all I had were the two lines. It was complete spontaneous. What's worse was while I was grieving, I was attending to newborn babies. For every mother that gave birth, I questioned God why He had to take mine away. The days were painful and every night I prayed for my child to come back. My heart was completely shattered and my husband didn't know what to do with me as I cried myself to sleep every night. We waited 2 years for that child and thought we'd never have one. I received messages from friends and families who suffered miscarriage too. 2 months later, I got to see two lines again. Did the ultrasound and saw my little miracle. I'm still healing from the loss of my first but my 2nd is putting my heart back piece by piece. In the time that I felt so alone, I found out that I was wrong. I pray that you find your own healing and peace. Hold on to your faith. Your child will come back to you.

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My Aphio⭐

Mommy of a baby boy angel

4y ago

nakakainggit ka po ❤️ we waited for our first baby too for two years 😢 dumating pero nawala rin. sana makarecover din ako sa pagkawala ng baby ko..

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