I may have the big C

Help po fellow moms.. I feel conflicted. Meron ako lumps on both of my breasts. Pag clogged milk ducts nawawala naman daw ng kusa with continuous breastfeeding. Pero lately extra fussy si baby. Natatakot ako na baka I have cancer. Nagiging bitter daw kasi ang milk pag may cancer ang ina. If I do have it, I have to stop breastfeeding him. Wala akong trabaho. Ang sweldo naman ni husband halos sapat lang para matugunan mga pangvaccines ni baby. Kanina umiiyak ako habang nagpapadede. Si baby tumingala sa akin, inaabot nya yung mukha ko at nagcoo sya na parang he was trying to reassure me. Sobrang nahihiya ako sa kanya na hindi ko siya napaghandaan. Minsan iniisip ko na lang na ipaampon siya kasi I feel so inadequate. I am also having morbid thoughts na I am wilting... lantang halaman or puno na naghihintay na lang maging fertilizer sa lupa... I need a better perspective. Please no bashers or hate comments. Kailangan ko po ng pang-unawa. Please if you have tips on how I can go through this, please let comment below. Please remember me in your prayers.