There might be a reason for you not to have love him. You married just because you got pregnant without you assessing your real affection towards him or you might have your previous relationship before that made you compare and realize that there something in that past that you cant find in the present or simply he fall short of your expectations of what a husband must be etc,...
whatever the reasons might be, one thing is sure LOVE CAN BE LEARNED.
God will not give us a "complete package" kind of husband. He gave us our partner because He knows we can be an effective and suitable partner to complement them in their imperfections. That is where "2 becoming 1" comes into play.
Love is not a feeling, it is a commitment and a decision. after saying " i do" we commit to love our partners when we feel loved AND more so when we feel they are unlovable.
I am married for almost 5 years and by the grace of God the magic of that first love and that first kiss is very much aflame.
By the grace of God who is the center of this marriage, this is the by product of praying with tears, opening how you feel, saying im sorry and loving the best and embracing the worst in him.
Ours is not perfect and many things must be learned but one thing is certain, if God is part of it it, we can experience the marriage the Lord wanted us to have.
God bless you mommy. You are blessed!
Magbasa pa