Does it make me less of a mom?

As a FTM, I tried my best to breastfeed my newborn for a month. (she's one month old now) but I decided to give it up today. Napansin ko, my baby barely gained weight and she's always fussy Lalo na pag Gabi. Hindi sya nakakatulog din ng matagal. On top of these, my mental health is already at stake trying to do my best to breastfeed. Sobra ang postpartum depression at anxiety ko. Lalo na pag nakikita ko na hirap at restless ang anak ko. Does anyone here experience the same?