Guilty not breast feeding

Before i gave birth i was so excited to BF my first newborn child. But.. it didn’t turn out that way. I BF for 2 weeks only because i am hating all the extra waking up just for pumping when i could actually sleep. I got engorgement everyday... fever..!I just hate it. so i immediately stop breastfeeding. He is still healthy one chubby little one. & i don’t regret my decision.