yesterday was the biggest fight and meltdown i ever had with my husband. We almost went into a physical fight. I wanted to kill myself. i had enough of these nonsenses and harsh words from him. I feel that i am going through some mental aniexty. i snap at the smallest thing. But i dont want to be under medication. Once i get medication, others will give me the look. i was so agitated that i almost threw my kid on the floor. Help.

Do not end your life for someone who will never be worth that death, I have been through similar circumstance. Between married couples, they should talk things out instead of maligning and using profanities. Don't be afraid to leave. If he have intention of hitting you, get help, do not suffer in silence. Do not be afraid to get help. Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. Do not be affected by others, what is important is that you can recover and those "looks" will diminish. Sometimes, medicine is better than a wrong move that you will do i.e. throwing your kid on the floor. You will never be able to live with the guilt if anything happens. Although I had gone through similar things but people have different feelings and opinion on their own. I cannot force you to do things, I can only suggest that you get some help. For more information on mental health: http://www.singaporepsychiatry.org.sg/seek-help-for-anxiety-disorders/ For more information on family violence: http://www.aware.org.sg/dealing-with-family-violence/