Is there some platform for confession? Can I made a confession here? I just screamed at my 2 month old boy until he jumped n stop crying for that 2 seconds n continue to cry. I'm a bad momma. I know I've scared him. Now he's cry until he fell asleep. Although it's time for his milk soon. I hate myself when I can't handle him. And I tear small surgical tape to tape his pacifier to his mouth for 30min. I cried after that.

Thank you for your honesty. It shows that there is still hope for you to change for the better. I can understand that it is not an easy task to care for a newborn baby. Perhaps, you could ask your family for some interim help to get you through this new transition of being a first time mum. Rope your husband in as well in child raising. This would ease some of your emotional stress. Lastly, do not tape the pacifier to your baby, it’s really heartbreaking. In the case of a crying child, it could be that it’s either his diaper is wet, hungry or colicky...perhaps try singing him a lullaby song..it might help as well. Babies do need some comfort and warm especially from their parents. Say a prayer with him. Your child will grow up feeling loved, confident and mentally healthy because you have made that attempt to do things right.