Is there some platform for confession? Can I made a confession here? I just screamed at my 2 month old boy until he jumped n stop crying for that 2 seconds n continue to cry. I'm a bad momma. I know I've scared him. Now he's cry until he fell asleep. Although it's time for his milk soon. I hate myself when I can't handle him. And I tear small surgical tape to tape his pacifier to his mouth for 30min. I cried after that.

I was like you after my confinement lady left. Husband was working and my maid was new and giving me a lot of problems. Although my little one is my second child, she is not easy to take care of and often cries a lot and I just couldnt take it anymore and I shouted at her not only once but each time when I couldn't stop her crying. I am also exclusive pump mum and was totally exhausted physically and mentally then. But it's important that we are aware of our feelings, emotions and guilt. Self awareness will make things better. I hv learnt to embrace things as it is, even if it doesn't go as planned. I also seek help Online joining 2017 mummy's Facebook and breastfeeding Facebook for support. Can rely on formula milk if that gives u sanity. Perhaps, u can try too and also talk to friends. Let out your emotions. My baby needs me to carry her most of the time and I eventually gave in to auto yao Lan for her to sleep in and I play white noise YouTube on lullaby that I found online. Things are better for me and her now. She doesn't cry so often and for Long periods of time. And I believe things would be better for u and baby too as baby grows. Jiayou mummy!